23 March 2013

Still Not Failed A Test Yet!!!!

Begin the new job on Tuesday. So excited. Need to think of wardrobe!!!!!

21 March 2013

All About the Outlook

I've just rediscovered a few cds from my evangelical Christian upbringing....currently listening to Switchfoot's New Way to be Human (oddly enough after watching a few episodes of the UK show Being Human - I'm not ready for Mitchell to die yet, so I've taken a break).
Initially I put the cd on for a bit of a pity party I was throwing for myself. A few weeks ago, I was offered a job that would take me out of the lack luster existence I feel I've been in for little while now. I never applied for it...it was sort of just handed to me - pending a background check (passed flying colours) and a drug test that is pending, but I'm fairly certain will be the reason I don't get the job.
I was seeing this guy for a very short period of time, and to be completely honest, the sex was amazing when we smoked. I very rarely toke up, but I liked the out of body experience I was having...kind of amazing. All of this happened shortly before I was told about this position. Now I think I've quite literally fucked myself out of a job - hahahaha.
At least I already have one I suppose.
During my pity party, I had a cocktail at 6am (I generally work at 5am - coffee shop and all - so I woke up at 3am just out of habit) and looked at my Pinterest (which I'm absolutely obsessed with) and saw something I posted a few months ago....Made me remember that life is about your outlook.
http://pinterest.com/pin/244883298460437106/
While I may have my drug test, I've succeeded at figuring out what doesn't work. And there will be something else...something better one day. I hope - OH GOD DO I HOPE. I can't keep living like I am right now because it's like work and money control me....I'm living to work, not working to live. And something's lost in that. But I'm hopeful. I hope you all have a beautifully successful day. I believe I will.